there is a dull existence trying, in vain, to blow life into a dead body which was claimed as 'mine' just a few hours ago..

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pasting this everywhere just in case I can't be found anywhere.

the air is sterile.
i like it. 
i like being away from people.

people scare the shit out of me sometimes.
by that, i mean 
being linked to people scares the shit out of me.

i can't accept myself.
i can't accept anyone.

people don't see you as yourself when you're with others.
that scares me.
a hell lot.

because that means there's only half of me within control.